bonewitness

Tue, 26 May 2009 00:31:11 GMT

My mom'll be here tomorow. Oh, I was going to call her tonight, wasn't I? Thank goodness for the time difference!

We went to a friends house for a bbq today, and it was really nice. I think it might've been the first social thing we did together as a family. We've been out, and I've gone to things with The Dude, and we've had family parties, but not a Good Time Party, so that was fun. The Dude had a LOT of fun and was totally zonked at the end (6:30) He fell asleep within 5 minutes of getting in the car. Once home, we woke him to change his clothes, then fed him back to sleep. He'll probably wake at about 11 for food, but he'll go back to sleep pretty quickly. In our bed.

I started co-sleeping with him about two months ago, and I love it. There was one night when he just Would. Not. go back to sleep alone. After about an hour and a half of getting him to sleep only to have him freak out at being put back into the crib (lather, rinse, repeat AD NAUSEUM) I finally took him to bed and told BomBoner that he was welcome to try, but this was my solution. He goes to bed in his own crib, but in the middle of the night, after feeding, he comes back with us. It's really a joy to wake up with him. He wakes up SO happy, and he's very snuggly.

Observations on myself: before having him, I was hard. It took a lot to phase me. I was all "circle of life, dude" about shit that shoulda bummed me out. No more. I was so hard that I broke. Shattered like china. Everything crushes me now. I saw people begging at an intersection yesterday and CRIED because we had nothing with us. I felt shamed that earlier in the day we'd used the last of the car change to get ice creams. How fucking decadent. And the, when the hurt baby bunny came into our yard, and hid in the basment window well, I just didn't know what to do. I tried searching out wildlife rescue, but could only find stuff in eastern Mass. This morning, BomBoner said it had died, and I insisted that it be buried instead of just put in the woods for another animal. It was so tiny, the size of my fist. I wonder if it was abandoned and then attacked by the neighborhood cat, or if the cat found it, and tried to get it and the mama had to let it go? Either way, I need to stop thinking about it. Yeah, lots of stuff just breaks my heart. I cry about all kinds of stuff, and if I happen to be nursing when I read/watch something, it is All Over.

I never prayed before, either. And I don't really dig religion. I think god is a collective emotion created by our shared experience and by the good we do for one another. But ever since The Dude was born, I pray every night. I pray for my two friends who are expecting, I pray for my friend's baby with the food allergies, I pray for my friend's father with cancer, I pray for my friend who lost her husband this year, I pray to be more patient, to be a worthy teacher to my son. And most of all, I give thanks. I try to convey my absolute gratitude for this person who has come into my life. I thank my lucky stars for a healthy, happy baby, and I pray that he wakes up even happier and healthier in the morning. He is joy.

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 00:47:16 GMT

BAH!!!

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 23:23:37 GMT

I think I am just not satisfied right now.

Sun, 11 Jan 2009 14:13:24 GMT

Happy Birthday, Leaf_K!

Wed, 10 Dec 2008 14:58:30 GMT

There is so much to say in the middle of the night, and not much durring the day.

Attn: friends with opinions:

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 21:51:25 GMT

I have a remnant of this fabric: http://buyfabricsonline.com/catalog/popup_image.php/pID/3431 It's large, but not quite a whole yard. I think I want to make a purse/bag from it.

Which pattern would you use: http://www.butterick.com/item/B4645.htm?tab=yes_its_easy_see_sew&page=9 (like the gold one, and with black handles. I have made this purse and like it a lot because its *vry* roomy, but needs to be held, doesn't go over your shoulder)

OR: http://www.favoritethings.net/patterns/handbags/a_wallet_purse (this pattern is kinda sucky to work with, and it doesn't quite have the bitchin' look I'd hope for with this fabric, but it *is* hands free, and I do dig that. It is also small and doesn't hold more than the essentials)

I also have this: http://www.favoritethings.net/patterns/handbags/an_everyday_bag which can easily be made with longer straps, but I don't think I'd like the look as much.

As for lining the bag, I'd use something I already have that matches well enough.

Feedback?

Mon, 19 May 2008 20:18:24 GMT

That's MR. Butterbean, to you!

And most of all,

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 00:46:08 GMT

Happy Birthday to Lyet. She is one of the smartest, wisest chics I know, and I am proud to call her a friend. XO.

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 01:08:48 GMT

Midterm grades are B's for M,W,F (bio and public speaking) and A's for TuThu (math, intro to theater and play production.) Funny, because I can *feel* how much better tues/thurs are for me.

What's for dinner?

Sat, 01 Mar 2008 02:13:50 GMT

Just my words.

I'm due Oct. 18.

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 01:28:11 GMT

I feel so meh tonight. I'm not of a studying mind (I'm done with things that need turning in, I just have maintenance to do). I'm in between books. There's nothing but shit on the TV. It's slushy, freezing-snow-y yuck outside so I'm not going anywhere. Even BomBoner is asleep on the couch. I think I'm just going to call it a day. We have a funeral tomorow. Auntie I's husband died on saturday.

I can't wait for the next week, though, so maybe sleep is good. The next days will include thursday school (still my fave) and a rehursal; friday=work and a production; sat=no work, final production of Bounce Around; sun=jack shit; mon=no school, craft day w/Jackie; tues= mon schedule exc. for lab (yay!). A nice run of days overall. It's just that tonight is lame.

Unintentional haha's

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 21:49:15 GMT

Anticipating more b-day cards, I just ran out to the mailbox. I got a card from my grandma, and this is what it says:
"...I hope you are considering to start your family soon. I will be running out of time before long and will never see your offspring, I'm going to be 91 years old in about a week. I never expected to live this long, or to pay as much rent as I do."
I know I shouldn't laugh at my grandma's heartfelt concern, but really. I am thinking I won't be having babies. I have a family already, it's just that none of them came out of my vagina. Plus, even if I *did* decide to have a baby, I'm sure as shit not planning on taking it on a plane ride across the entire country and grandma doesn't travel anymore. I'd rather take a screaming infant to Aruba, because at least when you land? You're in Aruba! You have something to show for your horrible flight!

She also adressed the outside of the envelope to "Mrs. BomBoner". Didn't even use MY name, which is also funny because it's so retro and so out of touch with Me. I don't even go by "MRS" let alone "Mrs. BomBoner."

Ahhh, Grandma...

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 22:39:52 GMT

I talked to my parents today (because it's my BIRTHDAY!!!) and guess what!? (This is for you, Gogo! And maybe Kat?) Looks like I've got a family reunion in MN this august! I'm totally excited for this even if I don't get a chance to meet you guys. My paternal grandmother was raised in MN and that whole branch of family (dad's cousin's, etc.) still live there. I've never met any of them, except great-uncle Heggy, who passed away a few years ago. I've never met his kids, nor his and grandma's other siblings or their kids. I'm totally stoked for this.

In other news, my In-laws got me a sweet new sewing machine with all kinds of tricks to it! BomBoner got me some nice pinking shears.

FECK!

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 19:55:56 GMT

I finally got my shoes! They are totally the wrong ones. These are, like, mens galoshes. However, Charlie likes the box they came in, and my brakes are done.

edit/update: apparently, the shoe place already knows. These are supposed to be picked up and I'll get the correct ones tomorow.

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 14:25:33 GMT

They tried to deliver my shoes yesterday, but wanted a signature. I am home today, and I want them SO bad!! I don't want to go anywhere until they get here. Shouldn't be a problem as I am also getting new brakes today so I am housebound. I just hope they don't show up when I am retrieving my car.

Sewing-I am almost finished with a dress, but I tried it on, and it doesn't fit quite right and I don't love it anymore. Crafty ones, how often do you abandon a project before it's completed? Do you quit when it's not working out? I can't help but feel like a quitter even though I started doing this for FUN and if it's not FUN, why would I keep doing it, right? I think I need to do a pattern a few times before I am decent at it, and by that time, I am bored with it. And this dress is only the second time I've made it, PLUS it's actually culled from two different patterns. (I call it the "frankendress" It's cute, but I can't get the sizing right, plus I am not into finish work. So perhaps I will make something else today. I have an assload of fabric, but I have no idea what I want. Hmmm....

Pink

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 14:22:19 GMT

I was just watching CNN and they had a story about this jail in TX. When looking for it, I found something from CBS: http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2006/10/10/national/main2077390.shtml I find it odd that pink is such a deterrent for recidivism (sp?). What the fuck is wrong with people that they are more scared by wearing a color than the act of doing a bad thing?

A question for Fallegirl: how do you think this relates to color theory? Do you think there is also a calming quality to pink? Particularly the shade they use in the jail? The baby pinks are quite calming, plus it's the "beginning" color, for 1st grade? Thoughts?

To all: How do *YOU* feel about pink? Do you like it? Why? I like the variety of moods for pink. I like the calming of the pastel, and the vibrancy of fuscia. I like the versatility: I pair it with black, grey, or brown, all of which are wardrobe staples for me. I painted my craft room pink because of the aforementioned "beginning".

Go Me!!

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 19:46:50 GMT

I ended the semester with all A's! YAY!!

Need craft help

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 02:02:06 GMT

OILCLOTH.
Someone gave me some cool "oilcloth" I don't know what to use it for. The obvious choice is a tote of some sort, but I don't like the *other* side. It's not nice, it's sort of rough. I guess I could line it with fabric, but then the whole thing isn't waterproof. Does it matter? Would you just make something like a makeup bag? I wanted to make a grocery tote, but...? Please send ideas my way. Thanks. (also, I didn't find anything on craftster about oilcloth)

Also, Kix~ What do you use for bag handles again? Some sort of plastic canvas stuff?

Yay, Me!!

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 16:54:50 GMT

MidTerm grades= strait A's!

(Xposted @ Swirl because I am so effin' proud that I want *every*one to know! HA!)

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 18:02:49 GMT

What should I make for dinner? I usually slack and don't do it. Which is fine the days I work, but I feel marginally bad when BomBoner comes home from work, and I've been here ALL day and haven't done a damn thing.

Suggestions?

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 12:01:41 GMT

Who fucking runs a chainsaw at 7:45am!? I'm up anyway, but I think it's completely rude, and I suspect, not allowed. Isn't 8am the cutoff for that kinda noise? Maybe I just love early morning and hate that it's interupted by this audio assault.

Sun, 29 Jul 2007 23:12:02 GMT

I've decided the blond was too blonde. It was fun, but as it grew out, it just got sloppy looking. I'm going a bit darker right now, but still not back to my real color. I still want *some* summer fun!

I am sure there was a ton of other stuff I wanted to put in here but...meh?

Tue, 22 May 2007 11:40:27 GMT

I have a problem with Milk Duds. I reallyreally love them. And I ate too many last night. I woke up at 4am and all I kept thinking of that time BomBoner ate a whole blueberry pie and how unsympathetic I was when he reported that his barf was blue. I also thought that maybe the big ball of stuff in my belly is how cats feel when they have a hairball.

Still haven't crafted anything, and my dressform hasn't arrived.

Fri, 18 May 2007 21:22:48 GMT

I am having a hard time being ok with *not* being crafty. I just don't have the impulse for it right now, and I'm not sure why. I've taken things out, made plans, reorganized, but I just can't bring myself to actually cut anything, or...anything. I just look at it all. Is it the weather? Something else?

Sat, 12 May 2007 23:04:30 GMT

When I got in the car to come home from work today, the radio station was playing Leonard Cohen. Fallegirl-does that remind you of The Racoon? It does me.

I found out today that someone I used to work with is getting married tonight. We used to be friends, but aren't really close anymore. I'm not hurt that I didn't get an invite, but I am a little offended. She came to my wedding, and apparently she invited all kinds of people--like, I'm surprised she invited the person I found out from. I didn't think they were close at all. Hmph. (not that I could wear cute shoes with my party dresses right now, anyway, but still!) Still, was it an oversight, or intentional?

Also, one of my other good friends hasn't called my back from the message I left 3 days ago, so I am feeling sorta hmph-y about that, too.